its way past 5am n i'm still not asleep.. it hurts alot.. my nose, my head, my stomach, my eyes, my heart n my soul... i guess i better take my flu pill b4 i go crazy.... got to swim into fantasy so that i can drown myself to sleep... i hope when i wake up, i feel better physically n emotionally.. been tru it b4 n i shud be strong... gosh, this time, i'm really sick i guess... but i dun think i'll go to the doctors... argh, my head n eyes hurts... bye...
i want to be in his cuddle again to fall asleep... love izz so much...
Masturah @ 5:58 AM
haiz.. i feel so sick right now n i cant sleep...
apart from being sick, something is bothering me... it keeps pinching my heart whenever i think abt it.. i cant sleep in peace.. i'll be on the edge all the time when something came out n it will always keep coming..its haunting me every night... y cant my life be just simple n the end? y all my happiness n joy will always end up in tears at the end of the day.. y r some ppl so selfish n never thought of the big picture.... wat do i do to deserve this shit? endure? how to? endure n fall sick so many times... its too late to turn back time...
i hate to laugh cos at the end of the day, i'll cry.. the harder i laugh, the painful my cry would be.... some ppl say its just my mindset.. but how come it happens all the time?
should i go see the doctor later? maybe not.... i'll see how my condition first, well its getting worst by the min... god please tell me its not swine flu... my nose is like a high tide water tap.... argh, my head hurts... if i'm not asleep by 5am, i'll take those pills...
Masturah @ 3:26 AM