heyhey... stayed home for today... wasnt feeling too good... had stomach aches... i'm just gg to keep myself from ppl for the time being cos of the swine flu... today spent my time in my bed watching Boys Over Flowers. watch one episode, fell asleep for abt 20 min than continue again.. than talk on the phone with izz a couple of times, than watch again... the drama is getting a lil boring.. but i'll just continue cos i like the actors... hahaha...
these days, its getting complicated... it seems things has got out of hands... its so messed up... i dunno what to do... should i hold on to it or just give up and let go.. i'm getting tired n things becoming meaningless... its seems so hard.. i just dunno what to do n i'm confused... what is there to go for? what is there i can hold on to? for the memory we have, is it good enuf to keep it going? what memory is there to keep me smiling? what is there for us to hold on to n make us smile again foolishly like we used to... its just a silence conversation, no agreement only argument.. we couldnt compromise n no discussion... its just too comlicated n i guess no one can understand cos i guess we both dun even understand what we both need... i wish we could do something to mend all the unhappiness n the broken... its a pity if we give up too soon cos deep down only we knew the answer.. but right now, things r getting complicated by the min.. haiz...
Masturah @ 8:36 PM
