its hard to accept, but i have to anyway... right now i am single... but unavailable... me n izz are not a couple anymore.. we decided to take a break for a few reason.. right now we call it date... we both are dating each other... its not that we quarrell abt something or someone... its abt us... we need to take it slow.. not wanting to rush into things... i was upset n cried that night... but than i now its the best for us.. we shall truely get to 'know' each other deep down to carry on... i guess only we both noe wat is the real reason.. its hard for me but i'll take my time to move on.. but hey, we r still dating each other like we used to... but i'm not his girlfriend anymore.. he wanted me to get to noe other guys n make new 'friends'... but no, i dun want.. i guess i'm too emotionally attached to him... he said that when its the right time, we'll patch...
we met last night... i cried in his arm.. n he said to me... "dun worry, i'm not doing this to date other girls... i just want to rediscover myself, for me, for my future n for us.. i want to realised how much we mean to each other... i love you no matter what..." the weird thing is, aft we broke up, we r more closer to heart with each other.. no more quarrelling like we used to... it felt that our love is true for each other... i understand what he meant cos i wanted that too... we need to take it slow... but what make me breakdown last night that we were too close n too attached to each other.. loved him so much yet we r not togather.. niways these holiday i'll be very busy with events, he dun want me to get distracted abt us... he dun want me to be too worried abt us... but he'll be there for me.. he said he wanted to come with me during my touring at raffles trail with the foreign student...
ytd i told him that i want to play soccer.. he said its very weird of me to ask to play soccer cos usually i hesitant to play... i wanted to cos i wanted to release my stress.. i realised i felt better aft playing soccer cos i found joy with him.. its my true feelings.. its a joy without doubting.. but last night we were closer than ever.. it kept me thinking...
i guess we have to take our time since we r still so young... it hard for me to let go but i'll find my way out.. its not a cruel of him to do this cos its for the better...but i have to set boundaries between us though he dun want that... if we really meant for each other than we will be togather... the song i put for this blog, its abt us...
baby.. i love you no matter what.. i guess its for the better.. n i noe you'll always there for me like u used to... we'll always meet like we used to... i guess its the best time for us to find out how much we really mean for each other... now we have to put faith on each other to discover ourself n let fate take its course... probably its a sign for us... i realised u r too precious for me to let go... letting go made me realised how much i loved you...
here is the lyrics for the song i put here in my blog.. its abt us... called Ordinary People by John Legend..
[Verse 1]
Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday
[Bridge]
I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
(Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
(Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
[Verse 2]
This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way
[Bridge]
I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
(Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
(Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
[Verse 3]
Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
Maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight,
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I
[Chorus]
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go(hey)
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
(Heyyy)We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
(Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
(Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
Take it sloww
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Masturah @ 8:28 AM
