hey.. good morning people... so early rite? hahhaha.. i just got back.. sooo sleepppyy...
my saturday.. hmmm... lets continue from the previous post...
went to sleep than in the afternoon izz called... he was bad mood cos of what i decided to do for our relationship.. he was upset cos i didnt want to stay.. was suppose to meet but than he dun want cos he upset... but in the end meet at 6pm.. but i'm suppose to go out w my family at 8pm.. cos i love him ssooooo much, 2 hrs w him also can la... so i make my way down to meet him at his bustop...
when i got down the bus, he was shock to see me cos he said i looked like i lost so much weight.. everytime we didnt meet for a day, when we meet, he will always look at me n said that i lost so much weight n i'm getting skinnier... so i was hungry, we went to maccy bought food take away than went to the multi purpose hall... he said he didnt want to waste time so he will play soccer while i eat..so ok la, but suddenly, he decided to sit infront of me n watch me eat...
he said to me not to leave him cos he needed me.. i felt that eye connection.. n i knew its from deep within him that he still love me n he still cared... told him abt my bleeding gum problem.. he told me to visit the dentist but i didnt have money... than he said, i'll work n save money.. i'll bring u to the dentist...
niways after eating we played soccer.. just kicking ard... had fun laughing... than at 7 we decided to go his house to change.. he was all sweaty.. so he went to take a shower n change.. i wasnt that sweaty... so i sat at the dining table n chat with his mum...talk abt getting a maid.. hahahah...
we left the house to go to the woodland mart... bought chicken rice for his family than went to the maccy to eat.. he wanted to eat..so i acc him.. mum called so we quickly finish his food... he walk me to the bustop... tot of missing 1 bus but i'm in a hurry so i left with a hug n kiss...
i realised, our conversation is getting deeper.. in a sence that we look into each other eyes n talk... he wouldnt do that during our first few month.. it felt so special when we look into our eyes, cos for all i noe he dun dare to do it... it felt so meaningful... when i look into that eyes, i realise i love him so much even if we argue alot of times... even if he is untrue to me for some other girls... we both r in such a mess n i dunno how to clear it... it seems so complicated... but above all the trouble we r in now, i noe deep down we both love each other equally as much... i wouldnt mine giving him chances only if he seek for it n not to repeat.. but it seems like he's not stopping... but i could see the changes, he is not so wild like when we first met... i noe he is trying to resist it... it just need time n i need to do my part for us...
so i rushed down to yishun mrt... my parents waiting there for me... i ran from to north point maccy... i had to cos they hate waiting... so we went to meet my aunty at telok belanga with my relative from malaysia... than head down to east coast park.. at carpark f2... one by one came.. met my cousin there suddenly we all so kecoh cos we never meet for such a long time... when me n my two cousin meet, it will be havoc like a mad house... we took half an hour to catch up on each other... i said half an hour cos we all talk so fast n take turn cos we all excited to talk.. hahaha... laugh like crazy idiot.. me with my stupid joke n they with their crazy laughter... we talk so much, even the makcik lose... hahhhaha... funny... i love it when the 3 of us meet... best... our beverage is ice lemon tea.. i was in my crazy mood... my uncle asked is it "kopi".. than i dunno y, i go reply him.. "no la, its teh iced with lemon" they look so blur than laugh like mad...
than at 1 plus izz called... i dunno y he bad mood n wouldnt want to tell me... n he keep on irritate me n stepping on my nerve... n finally we argue like fcuk.. wth... the problem is not settle n i am pissed... he was really pushing me to the limit till i explode n said something to make things worst... baby, i'm sorry to say such things...
than i try to cool down cos i was really pissed like shit... so i join my cousins.. eat nasi lemak tat my aunty bought from changi... i was hungry.. ate 1 pkt... than i tot of opening one more pack n share.... than my bro offer me the chicken... than i asked, "than the rice u still want?" hahhaah... than he replied " uh, u can have the paper, i just want the rice n egg..."hahhha.. all of us laugh like mad... we were with the other 2 cousin from malaysia.. they so cute n witty... tell jokes n laugh.. i laugh out loud to make my sadness go away... than the 5 of us played true or dare.. so cute sia my lil from malaysia...
at 4am, my two lovely cousin wanted to make me happy n forget my problem... both of them have such a lovely voice... they sang to me... i'm so touched... thank you guys.. i love u guys so much.. i really feel better n forgot my problems... they r not just my cousin... but they r like my bestfriends for life... they sing until we fell asleep... at 5, we all leave... tot pf watching the sun rise... but the elders cant take it, too tired, so we left... reach home at 6...
omg! its 7am!!!! i better go n sleep now... niways was suppose to meet izz today... but i dunno la cos we argue just now... haiz... my fault i guess... baby, i still love u ok... u really mean so much to me.. we cant seems to let each other go even if we both irritate by each other like crazy... but i realise, the more we irritated, at the end of the day, the more we love each other... weird huh... but watever its is, i love izz no matter what... bye...
Masturah @ 6:13 AM
