on thursday... before i left for malaysia, i went to meet up with my baby... it was ok la, i acc him to buy some snack than quickly go back home..
reach home i switched on my lappy and accidentally came across something.. i got mad cos its abt baby.. called him to confront cos i was really upset abt what i found out.. he was denying the fact when i noe its the truth... had a fight over the phone.. than he asked for break up.. it was his fault and there he go blaming me again.. its like what the fuck... was sad la...
than just abt to go off, we happened to call each other at the same time and that was y our line were busy.. i was crying madly... n i was in public place, walking to north point, alone.. he heard me cry.. i was sobbing real bad... his voice was cheerful and he was like saying that he dun want a break up... he tot it over and he dun want to lose me... he tried to cheer me up.. my eyes were swollen...
and right now i found out something again... i dunno is it her fault and i'm gg to call her a bitch or its his fault for being too cheeky and greedy... he hurt me alot these days.. its clearly shown that i should'nt stick around.. i should be breaking up with him.. does he even deserve me? i was so loyal to him, is he? i dunno why is he doing this to me... i thnk i might as well break up with him... maybe i should'nt waste my time idling on someone who dun take me seriously... why should i keep him here in my heart when he took someone else.. i dunno if its true that he is with that girl... but its like so clear.. y am i still waiting here? y am i still sticking around.. he hurt me so much already.. i love him so much but does he still love me? does he really love me? i dedicated my blog to him.. what for? when he dun even bother to read it.. maybe i should end this.. it'll hurt me so bad to leave him but whats the point of staying? does he want me or something else?
why is he doing this to me? y should i shower him with so much love and sacrifice so much but he dun even appreciate it? am i blind? maybe i'm dumb.. maybe i should just leave... it really hurts me... i just need to cry.. goodbye...
Masturah @ 2:33 AM
