heyhey... i noe its late... i just got back from a family gathering.. we went to sempang bedok to eat than head to changi beach... togather there r 4 cars n 1 motorbike... my dad was leading everyone... we told him we wanted to go to changi beach... but dunno y he suddenly so blur n drove us to east coast park.. hahahaha... cos of my granddad, we make a turn n go to the changi beach.. we reach there abt mid night... the atmosphere there is like 8pm.. hahah.. so many ppl... sang bdae song n cut the cake... laugh here laugh there than go home... i may or may not be working in 2 hrs time..
niways had an argument again with my baby... i asked for break up cos i couldnt take it anymore... it thought it was over... i still love him but than it hurts... guess i love him too much that i the whole situation becomes like this... i want to make it simple, break up n go silent.. i didnt want to look back.. cos i noe if i do, i wont be able to let him go... i told him that i'm sure he'll find a better girl than me... but than he said that i'm the best he ever had... its just that i did'nt realise how much he love me... he told me to call him... n i did.. he said he didnt want to break up cos he love me... he didnt want to let go of me... i thought it over... y shud i break up with him for some other girl... i thought it over... what the hell... so i decided not to let go... we'll decided to work things out..
we were arguing when i was with my family having dinner... i couldnt eat n i was holding my tears... cos its so hard for me to break up with him when i really love him so much.. i wanted the break cos i was too hurt n upset.. since he wanted to make friends to those girls so much than i let him have the rest n forget me... i didnt want to hold him back anymore... but than again i couldnt bear to break his heart.. when i called him, his voice were different... gosh.. i really love him so much.... y some ppl have to interfere in our relationship when they knew he is mine? its enuf these far... if it gg further than this, i guess i really have to be strong n leave him..
baby, i really really love u... u told me i'm the one u really love the most n u dun want to let go of me.. i hope u'll hold that promise hard enuf before i slipped off ur fingers in this difficult times... i'll have to trust u this time round... as much as u dun want to leave me, i cant bear to leave u either... i hope u'll keep ur promise... baby, i really love u... please dun hurt me this way again...
i want my baby now.. i want to hug him to sleep.. i want to have his smell like this morning... the smell of his bed.. i love sleeping on his bed... i love hugging his bolster.. it felt like hugging him... i want him now n i want him more than ever... even when u'r not on the bed, i felt like i was sleeping with u... baby, i want to be in ur arm badly... baby, i want to have ur kiss right now.. baby, i really love u.. i do...
k la.. i better go to sleep now... my head hurts.... gd nite or morning... bye...
Masturah @ 2:38 AM
