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i'm just a simple girl who loves those who love me. dedicating my life for myself and for the ones i love. read on and you'll noe more abt me

siti_masturah@hotmail.com.. thats where u can get me

I'm currently in ITE Clementi studying Banking Services
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trusting

hey hey.. today i am not going to meet my baby cos my whole family is at home. for good drace, i better stay home and spent time with them, yeah have not been spending time with them. was planning to go to the beach today, yayi wanted to enjoy the sea breeze. but it seems to be cloudy so maybe plan will change. i had a good night sleep and woke up at 1pm. wah, its been a long time since i have that heavenly sleep, i need that alot... mum has ben nagging at me, for not cleaning my room, for coming home late, for not staying home and for asking for money. haiz.. i dunno what to do..

sch is starting in 2 days time... and confirm i will be extremely busy with my student seminar project. in the first week of sch, i have the presentation on thurs and on friday is the The Next Green Designer event that me and my team organising. quite a big event. going to be very busy and i dun think i'm able to meet baby this whole week. i told him abt it, he said he will ftch me from sch if i end late and if he is not tired. but baby, dun force urself k.. my team may be getting into the top for presentation... its scary cos the seminar is a big deal!


these few days been stress with the student seminar and been enjoying my holiday with my baby.. i got emotional whenever he tease me, well, its part of it anyway, if i dun pretend to get emotional when hee tease, its like making a joke but no one is laughing, sounds stupid rite? hahahha, but i am emotional for real la.. irritating u noe, make me cry only... but he was just joking...


these few day i felt different with baby.. i can see he is putting the effort to earn my trust. he is gaining my trust bit by bit, it'll take time but it is growing. but even if trust is'nt that much, i love him so much, and nothing can change that. like abg robert say, to trust will take time, only time will tell and i agree. nothing comes for free and easily. got to earn it. i am putting in my effort to earn his trust.


these couple of days, there were a lot of sweet moments we had that is unexplainable. i am not going to eleborate because it is very special to me. my baby was so into me, that day in the bus, i tied my hair up, baby pull my hair band and groom my hair. he look at me and said, u look good like this and his smile was priceless. i saw that smile in his eyes when he look at my hair and into my eyes. he got that happy look that is very sincere. i can feel that happiness. this is how i look like... he took it himself...

our second month i coming up sooo on thursday, i will be very busy and so is he. so we decided t celebrate this sunday. i will be working tmr and he have training, so again we will not meet. got to be used to it cos in time to come, it'll be harder..

baby, i love you so much. i am trying my best to make you happy, u said that you are happyy enuf with me. i noe i have been too sensitive about u meet ur new frens, i noe my trust is not there, but baby, i'm learning to trust you, love is not valid without trust and i love you so much therefore i am trusting you. i was just being insecure all the time but baby, i noe u putting the effort to earn that trust. like i said, trust is hard to come by especially if its from me. it is tiring to be worried all the time but i noe i felt that way cos i love you too much. i will try controlling myself from doing things far worst than this, i shall not be too obssessive. u got to understand me that i am weak at this.

looking into you, i noe deep down u wont have that intention to hurt me. i noe how much i mean to u. you just told me how precious i am to you. one thing he said to me that, of all the girls he dated at that time, he choose me because he love me, not them. i am touched. my baby is getting mushy these days and i like it. i dun expect much from you, i understand your need, we r all young and we all want to explore... got to lose some slack and hoping you wont stab me on my back.

i got to go now.. mum is nagging already.. just need to let my baby noe how much i love him and how much he mean to me. baby, i love you so much and i dedicate this blog to you...

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