today i am in no mood. i dunno why my mum has been stepping on my nerve. she is like scolding me for no reason and getting so worked out. really irritating. i guess maybe cos she is stress dunno for what. haiz, hope tmr will be better cos i need to work with her to tmr.
i went to someone's blog just now. i have realised something. i am completely forgoten. all our memories has fade away. am i forgoten that easily when i am ur biggest history. was it my fault? what have i done to change all this? why have u change so much? even talking to you now is different, our language can nver be the same. i dun undestand u and u dun understand me. maybe we can just move on without even looking back of what made me real happy in my sad world. we went tru alot togather but now all is forgotten. what is the point of missing someone who have change so much and uncontrollable. i dun want to mention names.
to some other ppl, things have change now, it just bring us apart and i cant find ways to bring us all togather again. maybe u can but i cant. things can never be the same again. is it true friendship that i messed up cos of someone? what have i done? maybe i should be erased from everyones memory. i dun exist anymore.
having a successful life but no friendship, can love life bring me the only happiness? i have history, so is everyone. maybe its my fault, i'm no good, u dun have to see, just forget me.
baby, r u going to leave and forget me like those people i used to treasure? are u going to hurt me the way i was hurt and the way u may hurt me? r u gg to be there for me all the time when i dun have anyone to turn to? will u be there? r u gg to go away from me because of me like others do? i felt now my life is just you and my career... others turn their back and its my fault... baby, i love you so much... is'nt that enuf for u not to turn ur back on me?
Masturah @ 8:57 PM
