i lost weight!
hi again...
news flash! as of today, i lost 10kg!!!!! wohoo... to the person who challenged me to lose 10kg, hey, i did it man! without your freaking help... did it all by myself and no secrets and infact did'nt do much. it abt 4 mth.. but i admit, i did't eat well cos of no appitite and busy.
its all started when my bro pass away... then 3 weeks later i broke up with my ex. was very stress. and it was a holiday, i was working the whole holiday, working real hard to sweat and trying real hard to recover from my wound of losing my bro and breaking up with my ex who never stood by me when i need him the most in my darkest hour. in fact we started quarelling since the death.
i was real stress cos i was working w my parents, i replaced my late bro position cos he use to work w my mum. i have to be stong for my parents, i did'nt want them to see me my weakest point cos they r weak enuf, i noe they only have strength for themselve. it was pain to see my mum stared every corner of the shop cos my late bro use to work there since the shop open. she will cry while she was cooking.. than i have to face my customer and they all liked my bro... every sympathy they gave made me even sad and hurt. they loved him s much that they even cried upon hearing the news. my bro is really the nicest person i ever known. never fails to make everyone smile.
at that moment i only have my frens, but i did'nt rely on them. the only thing that made me strong is god and prayers... the ones that really help me to stand strong is MUSE(picture above). their songs were strong and they mean alot to me. i really love muse, they really take away my sorrow. i really had a terrible fall at that moment. losing two person i loved at that time was really painful. at that time and infact since the death, i did'nt really cried out loud to anyone... it only when i am alone. i did'nt have anyone to give me real emotional support. thank god i was strong enuf and did'nt go crazy and have mental break down or commit suiside. had intentions to smoke, drink, go club and be someone i'm not. but than i think twice, i'll regret in the end. so only thing i did was listening to rock and hard banging music. and back than i have chatters in msn who gave me support every now and than. btw, the person who challenged me to lose weight is my ex la.. name is nizam.
this is when i weight 83kg
this is when i weight 73kg... its taken like few min ago...
Masturah @ 2:54 AM
