home alone
hey there... for the first time in mths, i am home alone at this hour. a lil creepy though... thank god baby called so i won't be that lonely..
niways today i did'nt go out. stayed at home doing house chores. pile of laundry and dishes. in this hse, i'm the only one who is doing all the cleaning. sian but no choice cos they r busier than me. mum nagged at me for not cleaning the house and been out late everyday and not spending time w family. so today stay at home since baby also cannot go out.
was suppose to meet bby late afternoon just now but cancelled cos its already late, he dun want us to go home late anymore cos both our mum is hunting us down. i was a lil sad that i can't meet him. talked on the phone w him. i did'nt mean to show that i am upset. was controlling... but my voice got a lil chock. was abt to cry. sorry la, i'm abit emotional and crazy these few days. i noe it for our own good. i'm ok w it la, but its just a split moment of sad. cos tmr will be working and he is gg to mit his fren, a girl. than i only get to see him on sun, will be away till wed, than mit him on thurs than fly off to jakarta on friday. baby felt guilty cos i sound so down, i did'nt mean it. i tried real hard to change my mood which i did cos he started to joke and i laugh. really i did'nt mean to sound so down.
we planned to meet on sun. going to spent time at east coast park riding bicycle. we gg to take bus from wdlands and gg to have maccy for our meal. but we will be bringing sandwhich for snack. the rest is still under planning. hope it went well.. i love him so much that i wish i could be with him forever.
niways mum hint me that i have changed eversince i'm with baby izzy... i noe its my mistake and i'm sorry mum. i noe what went wrong, its my time management. i have to balance everything, i need to learn to give my attention equally to all party. i noe i neglected almost everything. i'm going to change that. and i noe baby will help me too. i have many responsibility, i dun want to be irresponsible anymore. i will try my very best to change the situation. its pretty bad for me and izz rite. i need to work things out w my family, its too distance.
rite now i have to go cos my family is back... need to spent time w them. hope they will not mention abt me being different and all stuff cos i noe its my fault and i'm gg to mend it.
bye for now... need to eat cos i've not eaten the whole day...
niways today i did'nt go out. stayed at home doing house chores. pile of laundry and dishes. in this hse, i'm the only one who is doing all the cleaning. sian but no choice cos they r busier than me. mum nagged at me for not cleaning the house and been out late everyday and not spending time w family. so today stay at home since baby also cannot go out.
was suppose to meet bby late afternoon just now but cancelled cos its already late, he dun want us to go home late anymore cos both our mum is hunting us down. i was a lil sad that i can't meet him. talked on the phone w him. i did'nt mean to show that i am upset. was controlling... but my voice got a lil chock. was abt to cry. sorry la, i'm abit emotional and crazy these few days. i noe it for our own good. i'm ok w it la, but its just a split moment of sad. cos tmr will be working and he is gg to mit his fren, a girl. than i only get to see him on sun, will be away till wed, than mit him on thurs than fly off to jakarta on friday. baby felt guilty cos i sound so down, i did'nt mean it. i tried real hard to change my mood which i did cos he started to joke and i laugh. really i did'nt mean to sound so down.
we planned to meet on sun. going to spent time at east coast park riding bicycle. we gg to take bus from wdlands and gg to have maccy for our meal. but we will be bringing sandwhich for snack. the rest is still under planning. hope it went well.. i love him so much that i wish i could be with him forever.
niways mum hint me that i have changed eversince i'm with baby izzy... i noe its my mistake and i'm sorry mum. i noe what went wrong, its my time management. i have to balance everything, i need to learn to give my attention equally to all party. i noe i neglected almost everything. i'm going to change that. and i noe baby will help me too. i have many responsibility, i dun want to be irresponsible anymore. i will try my very best to change the situation. its pretty bad for me and izz rite. i need to work things out w my family, its too distance.
rite now i have to go cos my family is back... need to spent time w them. hope they will not mention abt me being different and all stuff cos i noe its my fault and i'm gg to mend it.
bye for now... need to eat cos i've not eaten the whole day...
above is me n mum during hari raya... beautiful isn't she?
Labels: i love izzuddin, my ballon boy
Masturah @ 8:58 PM
